My socks are so comffyyyyyy
So, I thought I’d post random entries on this blog here on out. There is so much I want to talk about. The last time I’ve updated my blog was on February, which was 4 months now! And during those 4 months, alot of things happened! After I updated my blog on February, I was asked to shoot a wedding in Winnipeg. I couldn’t go after I got there because my fckin arthritis was sooo bad! I felt so bad for not going. A few weeks later, I found out my camera was stolen for drugs. I was sleeping at my cousin’s place in winnipeg. I woke up to look for it….I started freaking out! My camera bag was no where to be found! I was fckin pissed off! sheesh. Stupid Assholes. Anyway, Nikon D2x got stolen for drugs. So I wasn’t able to take pictures these past few months. As soon as my graduation came around, I told momma and pa that I wanted a new camera after I graduated (I told them this a few back). So last month I asked them if they still could, and they said yes. So I started looking online which one I wanted. I didn’t know which one to get. But all I know is I wanted a Full Frame Camera. I came across to Canon EOS 1ds Mark II. So, here I am not taking pictures again! heh heh heh heh. I’m so happy I get to take pictures again. I was talking to my sister in law about photography and how much I love it. I told her “I love photography, just like how you love your kids”. She said “I kinda already knew you loved photography. Even your brother knows that. He knew that you didn’t really care if you made any money off from photography. And he sees that you’ve spent a huge amount of money just for it.” heh heh heh. I dunno. I just love it.
So anyway, These kids asked me to take pictures of their Group for their music. So I did. They made me laugh most of the time we were shooting. But I had a good time taking pictures with them. They all liked the results and so did I. I never noticed how much difference there is with a Full Frame and a Cropped Sensor. But of course, I’m just realizing that now because this is my First Full Frame Camera. heh heh. More Pictures will be uploaded! But for now, CIAO!
HA! So today, I went out and took pictures with my strobe and umbrella. I picked the wrong day to be taking pictures outside! It was soo windy and my umbrella kept falling. These are the kinda of style I want to get into more. Only if I actually had someone to photograph lol. It’s (still) my nephews I photograph and their awesome funny acts. But sometimes they say no because they’re always having their picture taken bahahahaha. Braiden walked into my room while I was uploading one on facebook, and he saw the picture. He just stood there all smiling haha. Braiden is the one in the middle. They’re all growing soo fast!!!
Side note ~ Thanks again to Tony who did an awesome job at editing this picture. 
And the other reason why I haven’t been really updating and taking pictures is because most recently, I went to see a doctor a few weeks ago. I was told that no news was good news. But turns out, I got news. Apparently, I have arthritis. I can barely type at most times and I try to avoid typing lots because it hurts as hell haha. That explains why I’ve been aching so much all these months. But the medication I’ve been prescribed are helping me alot. Thanks to it, I got the moves like Jagger!
I think I’ll be starting another Weekly Challenge. I thought the 52 week challenge was awesome. I learned a shit load of stuff and gained more knowledge (As I have mentioned below). But I think I want to start another one. Instead of just posting up random things, I’ll be following this list I found on the DPS website.
http://www.digital-photography-school.com/53-weekly-themes-for-your-2011-project-365
So Just follow this link.
(Edit)
Here’s the link. I made a few changes.
http://2012fiftytwo.tumblr.com/
Week 52. Who woulda thought? But actually, it isn’t 52 weeks I updated. It’s more like…45+. Don’t yah think? Anyway, I havent been able to update because of my stupid keyboard went kapoot on me. So I just sorta waited until another keyboard to just pop up out from thin air. But that was stupid of me. I should have just ordered one a long time ago. Nobody doesn’t even want to lend me one either HAHA.
Christmas is just around the Corner. And I still haven’t shopped yet. Surprising isn’t it? But I’ve been pretty busy with my camera these past few weeks. With Christmas around the corner, my uncle’s girlfriend and I decided to do a “Santa Portrait” thingy. Too bad I deleted most of the pictures from the session. But I had a good time. I’ve also been going into people’s homes and taking their presents while they’re asleep. haha just kidding. No, People have been asking me to take their family portraits. So I’m sorta busy with the Family Portraits sessions. I’m quite enjoying it though. I love to taking Family Portraits. I take Family Portraits in my own way and how I like it. Surprisingly, after I show them the images, they tend to get happy about the results.
These past few weeks, I was assigned this book to read at school and write a report. I was finally finished the sequence until my instructor told me I had to redo the whole thing again. “No Offence…okay?” I was a little upset because it took me a long time to finish it. HAHA. But I didn’t really mind anyway. It’s such a good read if you ask me. I’m not gonna jump into details about this book because you’ll just scroll down. You find out for yourself to see what its about. It’s really about Tradition (TRA DISH SHIN) haha.
During my “busy” weeks of Family Portraits, I headed over to my grannys to take Portraits of her. She was doing her dishes when I walked in. She immediately sat down and made herself all comfortable in her chair. While I was setting up, she was telling me how she kept away alot of Family Portraits her and her family (My Uncles and Aunts). I’ve never met my Grandpa. Even tho I wish I did. My brothers and sisters always said that he was so happy and always making everyone happy.
By the time I finished setting up, I took this shot…she said “okay, That was nice. see you”. I was just sitting there with a straight face haha. I told her that I wanted to take a few pictures of her. She kept closing her eyes most of the time LOL! And I didn’t want to blind her so I had to take a few shots. 
Everytime I take portraits of my grandma, she always includes her bible heehee.



This little dood is so cute. He was sleeping before we actually started taking photographs. By the time I fired the first shot…he cried :P. so he had to be fed before we started again. 
What I did here was I placed one softbox aiming towards his head, and had the other strobe pointing the background.



In Conclusion, I started off with a Nikon D100, with the 18-55mm AFS lens, and a 50mm Prime before I started writing my blog. I’ve accumulated alot of things during the year. Gained more Knowledge in Photography then I did before I started the blog. I learned about alot of stuff…heh heh heh. So much has happened too. I now have the things I’ve always wanted as a photographer. I bought Strobes, a softbox, umbrellas. The Works! Hmm, what else. OH, I bought a SB600 for my D100. And I thought I needed an upgrade from my D100. So I went with the D2x. I spent so much money on Photography. I don’t mind if I didn’t make money off it though. I just love photography heh heh heh. That’s the other thing I wanted to point out before I stop posting :P. My cousin always told me to chase after my dream. To reach out and grab it. My dream is to be a photographer and travel the world (Cheesy, I know). But I’ve been thinking about it alot weather or not if I should make a career out of Photography after Graduation. Sure enough I love photography. But It kinda got to me that I should be doing something else. Got kinda worried about my future and just take Business or something in College. I guess only time will tell. You may say I’m a Dreamer, But I’m not the only one.
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Another Week went by. But it seems like it went by so slow. Last week My brother got beaten up from lifeless crack heads here in our reserve and was sent out on emergency. I practically had to wait freakin 12 hrs to be seen from the doctor. Bleh. But he is in good shape now. His jaw got fractured and is now wearing plates on both sides of his face, and clamped his jaw shut. So he has to wear the freakin wires for freakin 6 weeks! HA! But too bad for him. It’s his own fault that he got into this mess.
Other then that, I am feeling overwhelmed from what’s been happening in Wasagamack and other nearby reserves. I’ve been feeling really gloomy and sometimes I just want to break down and cry because of it. It’s such a tragedy.
Here are a few links you can read.
http://winnipeg.ctv.ca/servlet/an/local/CTVNews/20111109/wpg_boaters_111109/20111109/?hub=WinnipegHome
http://winnipeg.ctv.ca/servlet/an/local/CTVNews/20111113/wpg_missing_teen_111112/20111113/?hub=WinnipegHome
http://winnipeg.ctv.ca/servlet/an/local/CTVNews/20111113/wpg_boater_found_111113/20111113/?hub=WinnipegHome
Sadly, they found the last body that was missing. And Funeral is being held tonite in Winnipeg.
So, I’ve spent my past week in Winnipeg, and when I saw my camera when I got home, I realized how much I missed it! haha. I felt so inspired and wanted to learn something new. So I “stumbled” and found tutorials of lomography. And that’s what I’ve been doing for the past 2 days. Lomography lol. It’s awesome. What I learned that there are no rules for lomography LOL. Just kidding.
I know this isn’t lomo, but I like this picture. It’s my cousin Linda, and My Aunt Bertha, and my Grandma Agnes. I always wanted to take a picture of all 5 generations.





I seriously am getting sick and tired the way people treat me. People think they can ask me whatever the hell they want and expect me to just help out no matter what. I expect people to treat me the way they want me to treat them, and lately, people have been treating me like shit. I am tired of being nice to everyone. And I get nothing in return. It would be nice to have a friend listen to you when you need someone to talk too. But they all run away and expect you to be there for them when they need you. I know it sounds stupid but I am just tired of having people expect things from me and not have a favour in return. I am also sick and tired of not having to sleep all night. My back is always a hurtin and my wrists always feels soo achy and it hurts so bad. feels like my hands are gonna come off. Bleeeeehhhkk, Today wasn’t a good day.
I was called a Stupid Bitch today. I’m sorry if you think I am a stupid Bitch. I am not 40 years old still depending on my retired parents and expecting my girlfriend for support for everything to make my life easy to go by everyday. I don’t plan on living like a horn dog with no expertises like you do, I plan to get a career unlike you, who just spent all your life drinking. If you’re gonna call me a stupid Bitch, you should take a good look in the mirror and stop acting like one yourself! Get a LIFE!
A Whole month with no updation. School really has taken over for the past few weeks. I seriously can’t wait till I’m done. Ugh.
I’ve put my camera and stuff away. They’re now sitting in the closet helplessly feeling unwanted. Other then the dust that falls on them, the dust is the only thing thats getting along with my inanimate objects. I wonder what they do when I close the door O____o;
This past week, some of the boys from school tried burning down the school. They started a fire in the boys washroom, and I don’t know what happened after that. I think all the students got sent home because of it. And again, 2 kids tried starting a fire at the school yesterday evening. I was at grannys visiting, I was just about to drive off until I heard the school’s alarm system go off (You can hear the school’s alarm system all over the reserve). My cousin and I decided to drive over to the school, and there were alot of people there trying to stop the fire. 10 minutes went by, already a few more dozen people showed up. They managed to put the fire down though.
I think it’s sad how the kids think it’s really cool to be really gangster and shit. I think one of the kids said “I don’t like going to school”. Hence, the reason why trying to burn down the school. And there were parents complaining to the school and yelled at the…I’m not really sure who they yelled at, but probably the Principal or Vice Principal. The parents stated that their kids were simply “Not like that”. Defending their kid’s bad behavior and attitude will make their kids do more bad things because they don’t see anything wrong with doing bad things. Because they don’t see the consequences. I know some parents who do that, who don’t say anything to their kids and defend their kids because they are good angels. My parents always yelled at me if I did something wrong when I was a kid. I know not to do bad things to other people, and not vandalize other people’s property because that’s not who we are. My parents raised me with discipline. They still talk to me about these things because it’s wrong to treat people with negative actions.
I dunno, It just pisses me off how the kids are always trying to burn the school down these days. They think it’s a joke.
Anyway, Enough about my rant. 

My cousin Karen, got married last month. Again, I wanted to go to their Reception and shiz, but I didn’t. It’s kinda complicated for me to explain why.
I should start updating my blog during the weekends instead. That’s when I mostly have free time to actually sit on the computer and write some stuff. Other then writing a lot of assignment. The Ink on my printer ran out, and I need to refill it up pretty soon.
The past week I’ve been trying to take some pictures. My nephews come over everyday to play, and occasionally my niece would too. We always have to keep a good eye on the lil one because she’s always crawling around putting stuff in her mouth whatever she grabs a hold of haha.
Yesterday, I went through some pictures and saw pictures of my niece Lily. I just realized how big she is now. She’s already trying to crawl, always trying to climb on things. I recently taught her how to do the “If you’re happy and you know it, Clap your hands!” thingy. Every time I see her, I sing it to her to see if she would clap her hands. She would immediately smile and start clapping…occasionally haha. She’s so adorable! :)
This picture of Lily was taken yesterday. I had made a softbox which I found pretty awesome to use. Compared to the “Bounce To the Ceiling” and “Bounce Umbrella” flash shots, I didn’t like em. Of course there are plenty more techniques people use. But I found the softbox really good and It doesn’t give such harsh shadows and highlights and it is soft and diffused. I finally know what people are always talking about in the Internet world about softboxes. Althought I have not yet tried a shoot through umbrella, but that has to wait. 

Bounce lighting.
The strobe here was pointing directly at Lily. Didn’t edit this picture.
My Nephew Braiden. I told him to smile, and he gave me a weird….smile? haha. He is Lily’s brother….4 years apart…heehee.
I had a strobe + softbox on the left, and had another strobe sitting on the back right.
This was taken 2 - 3 weeks ago. Sometimes I tend to forget to upload pictures from previous sessions. I would have done more photographs like this but no one seemed interested to take Fall Photos. I shot this with an Umbrella.
Heehee, I did this one because I was bored.
I had a discussion with a friend a few nights ago about photography. He was talking about my images and how I have to develop a style with my portraits. He told me that I had…too much of this and that? Haha I don’t know. A few landscapes here, a few portraits here, macro? I dont think so. But he pointed out that my “style” had no style. instead, I was taking pictures to whatever was coming my way. it got me thinking that most of them really do seem “scattered”. I thought that, how would I know how to develop a style if I don’t know what I’m going for? Sure enough, I like doing Portraits most of the time. But how would I know if I wanted this way or that way? I told myself that I had to keep trying until I like what I like. Not what society tells me too. Eventually, I’ll get into more details and shiz. But I’ll leave it at that for now.
Until Next time…Ciao!!
Wow, 2 weeks just flew by. I’m not online as much anymore. School has taken over bahahah XD. My head feels like It’s going to explode pretty soon.
No new pictures this week…or….I went out a couple of days ago and took pictures of the Autumn season. It’s one of my favorite seasons because there are soo many colors in the leaves. 



Here are a few I wanted to post last week. They’re from early this year. I meant to edit them and post them. But I get carried away sometimes with other things and forget.



And today, my baby giant brother turned 18 today. Makes me feel so old :| ..is it natural? xD
Good Night!
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